joan mary ann
it's been a long time ago

dah bertaun-taun
gw gak ketemu loe

gak tau darimana
loe tiba-tiba muncul

gw bimbang mu nyapa loe
atau kagak
sampe temen gw bawa loe
ke deket gw

gw sentuh cium n pegang loe
seperti biasa
loe hot
at least for a night

well
it's good to see u again
in reggae atmosfere
surrounding us

i can't say
that your fire
do the magic
but that's enough
to help me ease
the pain inside

as my friend said
on every toast...

... for benazir who killed tonight for riots
... for damn prosecutor who do all that things to kick my friend's ass for the money
... for every great expectation which logged in our dreams
... sweet home, wife and kids!

hmpf...
i'd rather go sleep
as i mentioned
joan mary ann
u're the queen of
peaceful life

another calls
oslo's questionaire

"so, kenapa loe sepertinya
gak ngebuka diri loe
buat yang lain
yang mungkin
suka, sayang dan peduli
sama diri loe?"

silent

"kata siapa?
gw buka kok..
open mind,
soul and
i enjoy every seconds
at the momment."

laughing (both)

but
dalam hati
gw ngejawab..

"it's so beautiful
when they're arround,
it's so damn hurt
when they're disappeared."

the truth is
gw takut, gak pede dan
injured berkepanjangan?
ugh! we'll c..

budek
and ndablek

she : ok c u on sunday
he : what? someday?
she : sunday
he : ouh.. gw kira someday

ini budek, diperkirakan stock cotton buds dah abis n gak beli lagi karena lupa

he : now?
she : nope!
he : now ?
she : i'm tired!
he : now?
she : hmpf!

ini baru ndablek, diperkirakan karena... *tiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiiit*

bedegam!
dihajar tulisan orang lain

tadinya
gw mu misahin diri
dari sekumpulan debat
ide konsep dan appliance
kerjaan yang
lagi dilakuin
karena otak ini
sepertinya udah orgasme

masuk kamar
buka laptop (lagi)
iseng ngetik di google
dua kata
yang meluncur gitu aja
"feel" spasi "empty"

jreng..
link paling atas
ngerujuk ke
http://www.runningempty.org/loneliness.html

diklik, gw baca..

semenit..
dua menit..
tiga menit..
lima menit..

ugh
kayak nonton film india
lebih dari 5 menit
langsung susah pindah channel

wanjeng..
nyaris semua yang ada di web itu
ada di hidup gw saat ini

gw stuck for a momment
bangun..
bawa laptop
keluar lagi
nimbrung debat di meja dapur

fiuh
kayaknya mending
bikin orgasme otak gw lagi
daripada
gw mulai galau
and blame my self (again)

shit.. gw runaway lagi dan lagi

beautiful liar
arround me

pagi buta
kelar meeting
ada yang numpang balik
doi ngoprek cd player

forward..
skip..
klik next song..
berenti..

and
beyonce sing a song
beautiful liar

hmmm
capek
gak ada obrolan
jadi ngelamun
(mumpung jalanan kosong)

entah dah berapa kali
dalam hidup gw
ngadepin beautiful liar
come and go and come again
repeating circle i think

ada yang bikin gw terlena
ada yang bikin gw kecewa
hmmm...

but
tetep aja
i love them
the way they do lies

there's only one
honesty reason
inside every lies

alesannya simple
karena gw dan mereka
gak bisa bohong
sama yg dirasain dan dijalanin

white lies? pembenaran?
i think it's fair enough
to pass every beautiful mistakes
in another "unusual" way

i always take the risks
untuk jalanin semua ini
do you?

batuk
cigarette's trial error test

langsung coba djisamsoe
bullshit
katanya obat batuk
eh malah tambah batuk

nyobain kesukaan zoeb
marlboro light menthol
berasa keselek n gatel-gatel
matiin...

nyalain lagi punya erik
sampoerna mild
baru nyalain aja dah ehek ehek
kampret

habis makan sate lilit
atjil nawarin kesukaannya
lucky strike menthol
hmmm, adem nyamaaan

akhirnya nemu juga asep yang cocok
sama tenggorokan yang lagi manja
pengennya digaruk and dielus-elus
thanks tjil

bagi lagi dong...
hehe