Shred of Honesty
secarik kejujuran

she was a successful business woman before
and she is more than that
she takes a wrong choice from every sides
and i hate "kartini" because all of this
now i'm facing up another similar situation
she wants to be a really good career woman
do i have to prejudice her?
my humanity says yeah, u can do it baby
but my logic experience say no, please
and i see black cloud on her face
too bad to see it again
remind me of the risk that i took before
i never want to take that risk again

but?
here it is my fookin objections,
i have daughter that inattention
had less time to grows with her dad and mom
i dun want to have another inattention child
she was cheated on me with another 2 guys at the same time
i do cheat on her with only 1 woman at the different time
she did more than hundreds short messages and i do zero
every single message that i read shows her in single time
too bad to read that logs through text technology
and i hate myself, i dun have the reason to read it
to know what she looks like behind me

what i have to do now?
i do wish..
i do pray..
i do suggest..
to her mind, to her soul, to her body

a phrase that i want to tell her
to be a good mother and a succesful woman is hard enough
i believe she can do that
takes thousand jobs to do
takes thousand miles to crawl
takes thousand hours to pass
but only one thing that she have to prove
at my side and behind me
i used to called it honesty

sederhana aja lah, ngapain banyak duit tapi ada yang terlantar?